Day 04 - A song that makes you sad

songs don't make me sad. i have all this sadness in my already and listening to sad songs generally just comforts me. but if i have to say one song it would have to be masser af success by danish band gasolin'. not because it makes me cry but because the feeling in it is just so honest, so true. i don't know, i guess it just speaks to me.

just fuck 'em really

don't know if i should write this at all but i don't see any other way of getting it out. there is one thing that pisses me off more than anything else and that's people writing me off because i'm young. yes, i am twenty, yes i have not lived more than probably a fourth of my life, yes i am young, that does not mean that i can't possibly know things that people younger, same sage or even older than me don't know about. i'm not just my age. don't make me into a fucking number. when people say that i shouldn't say something because i am too young i just wanna punch them. what? do you have to lie dying to get to speak about life? do you have to be at the end to possibly know anything? i think the only thing you need to do in order to know something about life is living it. you don't have to have lived it, you need to be in it, and i am, whether i am twenty or sixty doesn't really matter. who told young people that we're not allowed to speak of our lives? that we shouldn't be bothered about the world because we are too young? that we should leave it to our seniors, to know, to speak, to fucking rule the world. i don't think i should have to die to talk about life. and i am not just a kid. i am as much a person as anyone else.

Day 02 - Your least favorite song & Day 03 - A song that makes you happy

least favourite song. thank god it's getting easier. heavy irony. i could go for the obvious, something along the lines of basshunter, i could also go for the generic top 40 - kind of song that i love to trashtalk, but i'm not gonna. no matter how awfully talentless certain tunes might be they are still avoidable. rihanna doesn't bug me that much because i never hear her music. what does kill me is that one bad song that kills an amazing record. like what flyg du lilla fjäril did to försent för edelweiss, not acceptable, not at all acceptable. i will however choose a song that even top that. pentonville. on down in albion. debut of babyshambles. some of the songs are as close to perfection as anything can be without getting boring and then pentonville comes along. fuck off.

when it comes to a song that makes you happy i think it would be silly to say anything but kom igen lena. because it could make me dance even if i was ready to jump, it could probably bring me back. you can't help but to be happy.

Day 01 - Your favorite song

i always try to skip this question. favourite song. kill me. oh, i'll just go for the obvious. the good old days - the libertines. i honestly think that's the one. it's the one i always return to. it's the one i just can't skip when my ipod is on shuffle, because it might hurts its feelings. it's not just a song, it's a piece of my teenage life, my now, it's a friend and an addiction i can't seem to get rid of, even if i wanted. so yes. these are the good old days, cause there were no good old days.

stolen words, stolen life

when your inactivity starts to bother even yourself it's time to get over yourself, get some motivation, get drunnk - it always starts the drama, get the carousel spinning. no. not today. instead i will totally rip off another blogger, found this list on a blog of a friend of a friend of a friend of a friend of a friend. ok, not that many "of a friend" but i liked the sound of that sentence. it made me feel like this friend chain could lead me to anyone. anyway, here's what i'm talking about:

Day 01 - Your favorite song
Day 02 - Your least favorite song
Day 03 - A song that makes you happy
Day 04 - A song that makes you sad
Day 05 - A song that reminds you of someone
Day 06 - A song that reminds of you of somewhere
Day 07 - A song that reminds you of a certain event
Day 08 - A song that you know all the words to
Day 09 - A song that you can dance to
Day 10 - A song that makes you fall asleep
Day 11 - A song from your favorite band
Day 12 - A song from a band you hate
Day 13 - A song that is a guilty pleasure
Day 14 - A song that no one would expect you to love
Day 15 - A song that describes you
Day 16 - A song that you used to love but now hate
Day 17 - A song that you hear often on the radio
Day 18 - A song that you wish you heard on the radio
Day 19 - A song from your favorite album
Day 20 - A song that you listen to when you’re angry
Day 21 - A song that you listen to when you’re happy
Day 22 - A song that you listen to when you’re sad
Day 23 - A song that you want to play at your wedding
Day 24 - A song that you want to play at your funeral
Day 25 - A song that makes you laugh
Day 26 - A song that you can play on an instrument
Day 27 - A song that you wish you could play
Day 28 - A song that makes you feel guilty
Day 29 - A song from your childhood
Day 30 - Your favorite song at this time last year

now, force me to be active dear list!

a thousand dollars for your kiss, fifty cents for your soul

exposure. not in a headline kind of way, more of a "here, i put my bare neck in front of you, will you please not bite it" - sort of thing. sharing what's not shallow comments and silly jokes, the parts that keep you from falling asleep, the things that kill even the slightest possibility of making your hangover sunday useful, the thoughts that make you want to bang your head against a wall, sleep and never get up again, freeze time or make it fly, the restlessness that haunts you and makes nothing feel ok, what is definitely not your most easy side to swallow for a new acquaintance. we all fear it. the exposure. we all fear it, and we all want it, for the second we stick our necks out and someone doesn't bite we know, know that this particular someone wishes us no harm. still we hide. some behind the comfort of their own petulance, others behind their bluntness - stating their honesty when in fact it's just an outer layer concealing the real truth, some even behind their happy smiles. i know a song with the lyrics "you came to be heard, i came to answer your call", to me that is the most loving words you could ever say to someone. that you are there to listen, not to speak, not to judge, not to go away, to stay and hear them out. that is love in its utter form, and we don't let it in. be loved.